On Playgrounds, Violence, and Shame

“Playground experiences can mold a lifetime.” – Jon Ronson

I recently got to read the book Playground by James Mollison, which is a photography project to capture the diversity of play experiences children had in different countries. He described his motivation for the project at the very end: “When I conceived this series of pictures, I was thinking about my time at school. I realized that most of my memories were from the playground. It had been a space of excitement, games, bullying, laughing, tears, teasing, fun, and fear.”

More interesting is the forward written by Jon Ronson who reflected deeply on his own childhood experiences on the playground which were distinctly coloured by bullying, violence, and shame.

When we engage in play, we suspend reality and can give ourselves space to try on new identities, explore repressed emotions, and self-express in new ways that might otherwise feel risk in ‘normal’ life. It can be as innocent as dressing up in ways that in ‘normal’ life would leave us with a fear of social rejection or on a darker note role playing the villians in our bedtime stories. Our playgrounds are not only places of joy and creativity but also laboratories for experiments with anger, violence, aggression, and our ‘shadow’ selves.

Jon Ronson wrote that “Playgrounds can mold a lifetime”. As I look at all these photos, I can’t help but think that while we absolutely should be thinking about how we shape our play spaces physically perhaps we should be spending more time on how to shape them politically. Who makes the rules and who referees? How far are we allowed to go in our self-experiments one way or another? How do we handle conflict, address violence, and support communication?

As adults, teachers, designers, leaders–we sometimes think we know best. We forge ahead laying out rules, regulations, expectations, we facilitate and supervise, we start to box in play and public activity according to what we think is the most safe. We consult books, best practices, and professionals…. and often forget to ask the one group that matters most–our users. When things go even a little bit array, we jump in to fix, and the opportunity to have a direct experience cultivating skills in negotiation, temperance, independence and personal responsibility is greatly diminished.

What I’m getting at is: when we alienate the users of our playspaces (whether children or adults) from the creation of the rules that govern it and the decisions that physically shape it, we lose the opportunity to come together as a whole community. We loose a chance to have a group dialogue about how we want to live together. To understand collectively our standards for integrity in our interactions. We perpetuate power structures, stereotypes, and personal fears.

I don’t have a strong concluding point except to say that we should, whenever possible, engage in collaborative playcemaking. Engage all stakeholders. Seek out the smallest voices, those disenfranchised and unheard or undervalued. Our playgrounds can be more than just recreation sites… they can be places of deep healing too.

You can see more of his photography online on his website.

Play and sports can be incredible spaces for peacemaking, community building, and personal development.

From Humiliation to Violence

American psychiatrist James Gilligan spent decades interviewing violent prisoners and his concluding core belief was that the deep underlying motivating force that drove people to violent behavior was the hope of suppressing or relieving feelings of shame and humiliation.

These feelings of shame can originate in so many different ways — Being insulted, teased or rejected, subjected to some form of perceived or real indignity or unfairness–even simply experiencing feeling weak, unattractive, or incompetent. We all can likely point to a time, if not many times, in our lives where the seeds of shame took hold and manifested in anger and hurt.

Sometimes we are brave enough to reach out into our communities or turning to our partners, therapists, or online platforms for healing and help. Moreoften we keep our feelings hidden. If someone was to see or confront our shame and subsequent unworthiness, surely that would destroy us?

But there is a far more awesome, destructive power in secret shame. In fact it underpins most anger and hurt in the world and, when unchecked, can push us over the threshold into violence.

Violent Bodies, Violent Words

You might think to yourself that you’ve never been violent before. And that’s fair.

When we think of violence, we often think of the violence imparted with our bodies–physical blows and altercations against either yourself or another. However, more common is violence imparted with words. Degrading and belittling self talk, unkind and aggressive communication with others. We all can likely find a time we are guilty of it.

When secret shame takes hold we are at greatest risk of hurting not just those around us but also ourselves.

Practice

When you catch yourself being unkind or hurtful in conversation–whether in self talk or with another human–try to take pause, step back, and find the true cause. What shame are you experiencing that is driving you to anger and hurt?

Read – A good follow up book would be Daring Greatly by Brene Brown.